I really wish I felt like painting or drawing again. I really don't have the energy or focus to do anything anymore. The more I look at my art, the more I hate it. I want to produce some beautiful piece, but I start on things and can never finish them. I just always think whatever I do is not good enough. I really wish I was not this way. I think going to art school really destroyed me. I can't get over it. I don't have a passion for school anymore. I dropped out, and I don't know if I will ever go back. It's killing me, and I am so confused right now. Nothing really inspires me anymore and I just don't know what to do. I'm sorry to all my friends who knew me when I was happy and motivated. I understand now why you have all abandoned me, but unfortunately it was when I needed you the most. I'll figure things out... without you.